Still waiting

Still waiting

Yup, baby's not out yet.
Yesterday, I was having contractions on and off throughout the day but nothing regular. I had a very uneasy night. It was just really uncomfortable. The thing is, I'm holding off going to the hospital until I know for sure that I'm going to deliver already. I don't want staying in the hospital for very long. It's just so tiring there. And being there seems to make the pain magnified. At least while I'm at home, I can do other stuff - watch TV, surf the net, talk with my mom, lay in my comfy bed with my comfy pillows, walk around, eat.
Ahyhoo, last night I kept having "panic" thoughts like:

"OMG! I'm going to give birth SOON!!! I can do this right? I've done it before and survived the pain spectacularly. I can do this...I can do this..."
"OMG! The baby will be here soon! Am I ready to care for a newborn again?"
"If I give birth now, I won't be able to take DS to his Dr. appt on Monday. I might be discharged on Monday. How will we handle logistics?"
"I'll need to do the groceries for next week."

and so on...

Yup, crazy, panicked thoughts kept me awake. DH would tell me to try not to think about it and just sleep. Easy for him to say. LOL!

I woke up this morning to no contractions. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. On one hand, I'm ready and just want to get this over with. On the other, I'm anxious about it. Even if this is my 4th labor and delivery, I'm still anxious! I've been blessed the past 3 times to have had relatively quick and easy deliveries - with no complications, etc. But I wonder if this time, I won't be as lucky, y'know?